Nameless Heroes

02/25/11. 25th Anniversary of EDSA. But I am not feeling it; maybe I am just too stressed or too preoccupied that I didn't even twit about it as form of commemoration. I guess idealism lessens when you age. Reality's too harsh that sometimes you can't help but just give in.

I wanted to be a hero. Altruism kicked in way back when I was very young - maybe 8 or 10; I really don't remember, but I was very enthusiastic back then. In fact, I thought I was destined to be the next Jose Rizal or Ninoy Aquino. I believe I am not alone into thinking that way - Efren Peñaflorida was named 2010 CNN Hero of the Year. The diference is, he had the guts to risk a corporate career over teaching kids on the streets. And I don't have the boldness to do so - worse, I would usually end up thinking of good ideas and not act on it. And so I blame myself.

Bob Ong's Kapitan Sino

Nevetheless, just like the old saying, it's never too late. I am naming here my new inspiration, that is, Kapitan Sino. The who? He's Rogelio Manglicmot in person. Thanks to Bob Ong, his story is up for grabs in National Bookstore.

My nameless hero

I was so moved that I needed to release all the positive energies in me. But I don't have a venue and I ended up drawing my own nameless hero.


And so I am writing this on EDSA's 25th Anniversary and just realized that I am commemorating it in my own way. We knew EDSA as where about 2,000,000 individuals - most of them nameless workers, parents, yuppies, teens, etc. - risked their lives for freedom and so someone else can benefit.

But I wonder, what if everyone would think as a hero? I guess that would bore us then since struggles are what make our lives so fulfilling. And I love fulfillment. I wanted to feel it in my job, in my family and in every aspect of my life. You can't always have it your way but no matter how difficult, unpleasant, depressing, humiliating it may be, I intend to make a difference. I don't need to be named; each mind remembers anyway.

Happy 25th EDSA Anniversary!

Wanted: Girlfriend

Yeah, why not post it if you're desperate. But am I really that deperate?!? LOL! I am not bad-looking, am I? Oh, well, I am not a sports hearttrob that can easily (and confidently) ask a girl on a date for Valentine's via Twitter. Guess I'd have to settle with the smiley she sent to me way back November 17 at 5:13AM Manila time. Yes, I twitted Angel how much I admired her workaholic ways and she replied privately with a smiley. Woot! Woot!

I can't blame Phil. Though he's not getting it on February 14, Angel hinted they may do it some other time. Lucky Azkal!

Oh yeah, I remember I have been keeping a McDonald's My Sweety Bear for years now, thinking I'll find the right girl to give the toy on a Valentine's (Is this still sweet, girls? Oh, I spoiled it!). It's still with me as of this writing so I guess I'll have another year to keep him. *Sigh*

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone!!!

Bringing back the habit: Writing

It’s about time that I go back into writing. I need a venue to release my thoughts. It’s been months that I am unable to sleep peacefully. If you are working at night, I believe you can relate to me. I was told by one of my agents that probably the reason I can’t sleep is because I tend to think of a lot of things (This is of course on top of the fact that sun’s rising and by normal state of body clock I should be awake). Well, true enough as I feel like I would sometimes get crazy thinking of a lot of life issues – how can I do a better job, what if I am working on a different company, what if I was born in a complete family, why can’t I still get a girlfriend, can God still forgive me for all my sins, and, yes, I would usually come to the point of asking what is my purpose here on Earth. Absurd? I don’t know, and I don’t think I am the only person who’s undergoing or has undergone similar dilemma. (I hope!). In any case, I just think I’ll be better if I write about it.

Sayang naman kasi Journalism graduate ako. While I can still practice my knowledge in my current job, it’s still different when you get to write every now and then. And so here it is – I am creating my blog seriously for the first time. There’s just one thing, though, that I am thinking while writing this – can I actually keep it?